...At this moment I'm feeling the same freedom I usually feel only on stage, without a doubt, I need to share. ... This is just what I need especially now that I am the father of two beautiful boys that are so full of light and who with their outlook teach me new things every day. To keep living as I did up until today would be to indirectly diminish the glow that my kids where born with. Enough is enough. This has to change. This was not supposed to happen 5 or 10 years ago, it is supposed to happen now. Today is my day, this is my time, and this is my moment.
These years in silence and reflection made me stronger and reminded me that acceptance has to come from within and that this kind of truth gives me the power to conquer emotions I didn't even know existed.
What will happen from now on? It doesn't matter. I can only focus on what's happening to me in this moment. The word "happiness" takes on a new meaning for me as of today. It has been a very intense process. Every word that I write in this letter is born out of love, acceptance, detachment and real contentment. Writing this is a solid step towards my inner peace and vital part of my evolution.
I am proud to say that I am a fortunate homosexual man. I am very blessed to be who I am.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Oh Ricky you're so fine
Friday, March 26, 2010
attack of the teevees
Inspector Murdoch mysteries have started again! These I do NOT avoid. I lurv mystery series, and this one takes place in turn of the century Toronto.
A new Sharpe is airing soon! A must-watch.
And can I resist Glee once it begins again? Oh la oh la.
I need to get ouut of heeeere
Saturday, March 20, 2010
bookrastination
So far I have about 370 "already read" books added to weread on facebook. A mixture of the books I've read and still own, and those I can remember reading--which I add to sporadically, as titles come back to me. I envy those growing up in this electronic age, who can catalog every book they've ever read as they grow up! How wonderful that would be, to remember every library book you took out as a child, every little collection you owned, etc. SIGH.
Here's my list of Favourites on weread. To be a fave, it doesn't have to be the greatest book in terms of Ahtistic Mewit. In fact, it's hard for me to mark just any great literary read as a fave, because if the book was also sad, chances are I'll never re-read it. But there's a few, like A Fine Balance. I probably won't ever reread it, but it was so beautiful, I cared about the characters so much, and I remember so many little details--it definitely has to qualify as one of my fave books ever. But often books like that earn 4-stars, or 5-stars but not a "fave."
On the other hand, books that were funny usually make The Fave List. Even if every Wooster story is basically the same, I know I'll always return to these stories and get great enjoyment out of them. These are the books that make me want to write.
To write... if I can ever get out of this mire of music business research.
I also have an account at goodbooks, but I'm only adding books to it as I currently read them--I joined so as to chitchat with other staff members on what we're reading.
writing humdrumconundrum
Luckily, as a humour writer, I will probably fight my way out of this paper bag by doing something silly. But in the research/thinking phase it's hurting my brain like hell, which means I'm procrastinating a lot.
I usually enjoy researching, but on a personal level I'm not sure I care all that much how this music thing is going to turn out. I consume music, but I don't make it. I'm happy to sit back and see what happens. But now I can't! I can't just SBASWH because I'm writing this damn book. Or rather, I'd like to be writing this damn book, but I can't until I get a breakthrough.
Frikkety frak.
It's 6 AM I'd better go to bed. Frakkety frakky frak frak frak.
Sherry Bones
Admittedly... these are the things he's always loved to do. He just does them in a different proportion.
Things Sherry likes:
- softies over crunchies
- toys that jump and fly about
- a good run after he uses the facilities
- freshly cleaned pillow cases (Apparently. Today I tossed two clean pillow cases on the bed, and he went straight to them and slept there all day.)
- scratches and fur-pulls from the armpits upwards
- carbs (but he can't tolerate them--so he's a cat with long bumhair, who gets diarrhea once a week)
Things Sherry hates:
- Haley bugging him
- pets anywhere below the armpits
- bathing himself
- the weekly bath to clean his bum
- when other cats come home from the vet smelling Wrong
mixtape
And here is the playlist (I didn't realize you could embed a whole playlist!) it's pretty interesting. I've got a couple new faves now.
[PS - Please no negative comments, should you choose to view The List. I doubt a single one of my employees reads this blog, but in case someone does... sharing favourite songs is actually a sort of vulnerable thing to do.]
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
People have the power... well some do, anyway
Lyrically the song is simple, but I think it's nice to be optimistic once in awhile. Very much in the "Imagine" vein, and appropriate to the subject matter.
I believe everything we dream
can come to pass through our union
we can turn the world around
we can turn the earth's revolution
Here's the original song.
Bill Cosby: The Chicken Heart
And this one:
And this one:
Oscar
I can't say I was a big Oscar fan before reading that article, but I became even less of one after. Cinematic Hollywood must be the most out of date, out of the loop, backwards entertainment industry in the US. Ridiculously so. Ridiculously behind its own public.
And I guess, according to this article, very little has changed since I read the article 14 years ago: [this is in re. Mo'Nique's acceptance speech]
In the 70 years between McDaniel's and Mo'Nique's wins, only three other black actresses -- Whoopi Goldberg, Halle Berry and Jennifer Hudson -- have taken home Oscars. Just one of those was for a leading role, and if you guessed that went to the only thin, light-skinned, button-nosed, biracial one of the bunch, you get a gold star. Four black men have won best actor -- three of those in the last 10 years -- and four have won best supporting. So that's 13 acting awards out of 328. In 82 years. This year also saw the second African-American to be nominated for best director and the first ever African-American screenwriter to win. In 82 years. Welcome to post-racial America.
...
Consider the shocked reaction of umpteen reporters upon learning that the movie's star, Gabourey Sidibe, is nothing like Precious -- that she was, in fact, acting. Consider the clip they chose to show last night that featured Sidibe stealing a bucket of fried chicken, for crying out loud. Consider that four of the best picture nominees were widely criticized for their treatment of race -- "Precious" for all of the above; "District 9" for its arguably sketchy handling of an apartheid allegory and undeniably degrading depiction of human black Africans; "The Blind Side" and "Avatar" for being yet more iterations of a tired and condescending "white savior" narrative. That's not to say those films were wholly without merit or even necessarily undeserving of the praise, but when four of the year's most beloved movies contain problematic racial tropes, it's a bit premature to congratulate the Academy or ourselves for having come so far in the last 82 years. [from Salon]
Monday, March 15, 2010
A must watch! (and I don't say that often)
Well I don't LURV Apple, but I do like it quite a lot!
I just filled in a survey for the Apple Genius Bar, and it turns out that cleaning the screen and the computer is part of the service. Cause they asked if it was done! Nice touch, I must say. I definitely recommend anyone to use this service if you have one near you. The repairs were also done quickly, and the customer service was very professional. A really different experience than bringing it into a mac dealer service shop.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
zzzzzz
It's 11:43 PM and I might actually go to bed. I went to bed late last night, even though I was already sleepy to start with. And I was sleepy all day. And now as I sit as my computer my eyelids are getting heavy.
Go to bed! Quick, before the moment passes!!
I have to do a day shift tomorrow so... must... get... bed... meh meh meh!
Scenes from an apartment: Haley's gum
Magicians and WW2
During the North African campaign, the British moved the city of Alexandria
to keep it from being bombed.
You heard me—they moved Alexandria. It was one of the many clever
deceptions British Intelligence carried out, this one with the help of Jasper
Maskelyne, who'd been a magician in civilian life.
Here's how it worked. They took photos of Alexandria's harbor (famous for
its distinctive ancient lighthouse), then went down the coast and found a place with a
similar coastline. They set up lights to simulate the city's and built another, much
shorter lighthouse (the heights of things on the ground can't be judged from the air,
as witness those damned hedgerows in France which nearly derailed the D-Day
invasion), and then blacked out Alexandria and lit up the fake city. Luftwaffe pilots—
looking for the harbor and the lighthouse—bombed the new location, and in the
morning when they sent reconnaissance planes over, found rubble where they'd
dropped their bombs the night before, which meant they were bombing the right
place. Except that the rubble had actually been piled there the night before to match
the spots bombed in the fake Alexandria, and the rubble was portable, so when the
Luftwaffe bombed "Alexandria" the next night, they simply moved the rubble to the
new locations. (Full article here.)
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Scenes from a marriage - a typical scene in the Mabel-Fernando Home
[5 minutes later, husband waltzes into the room with calico cat]
Fernando: I'll build a stairway to Haaaleeey with a new paw every daaaay!
me: [the orchestra] doo dooo doo doo dooooo
Fernando: I'm going to get to Haley at any priiiice...
me: doo dooo doo doo dooooo
Scenes from an apartment: the boys upstairs
Well, they've been my fave upstairs neighbors since we moved here, I must say. One family, years ago, used to yell at their kids all the time. And the last family were the ones who used their washing machine after I expressly asked them not to, thereby flooding my whole kitchen.
Fave Songs?
Originally I was going to pick The Roots' "The Seed (2.0)". If this song doesn't make you drum your keyboard then... well, you've got no inner majorette, that's all I can say.
But most of the staff are picking male artists, so I decided to pick a song by Kate Bush, since she's probably my fave pop artist ever. I was probably going to pick "The Fog" which is lyrically meaningful, and instrumentally interesting, the music matches the lyrics, it's beautifully engineered, and just lovely. It's KB.
Then it occurred to me... what about my favourite songs outside the realm of rock-pop? And I almost immediately thought of Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong's recording of the operetta "Porgy and Bess." Oh my days. Gershwin + Ella + Louis = Out of Body Experience. If I'm going for A Fave Song, why not pick one that has the power to give me goosebumps or even bring tears to my eyes. [For this version, skip to the end of this post!]
Porgy and Bess is the story of a nice, disabled guy who's in love with a drug addicted woman in an abusive relationship. Racially it's controversial--written by white guys, black people portrayed as poor and durggy and thieves, and the dialect is insane. But enough African-Americans have and still do record it, and musically it's luv-er-ly.
Though "Summertime" is probably the greatest song from this musical, I've loved "Bess, You is My Woman" ever since I heard it on Streisand's first Broadway album. (It's a combination of this song, plus "I Loves You Porgy.")
I didn't know there was a Miles Davis recording of the whole operetta... must investigate.
Here's a version the way it would normally be sung. The ending, esp when acted well--that's the tears part.
And here's Ella and Louis, uploaded by moi pour vous. "Morning time and evening time and summertime and wintertime..." That's the goosebumps part. (And if this gets taken down from youtube by the time you read it, I apologize. You'll just have to go buy the song!)
So what would you choose as One of Your Fave Songs of All Time for a mix tape to share with coworkers?
Canada Reads result
Maybe I'll read the winner of the Combat des livres instead.
eeek!
Friday, March 12, 2010
Dr Katz
Dave Chappelle: "Who would wanna be Aquaman?
Of course my fave ever was Mitch Hedberg: "If you are flammable and have legs you are never blocking a fire exit." "Yeah but what happened to the Dufresnes? Nobody seems to care!"
http://www.spikedhumor.com/articles/29876/Mitch-Hedberg-on-Dr-Katz-Video.html
The next charity single - K'naan's "Wavin' Flag"
Well, obviously I lurv K'naan so I don't have much to say about this charity tribute. I do think it's the most appropriate of all the songs recorded so far -- in part because of the original lyrics/intent of the song, and in part because K'naan altered the lyrics specifically for this new subject matter.
If you haven't yet listened to the original song, you must--out of his many beautiful songs, it's one of the most beautiful. A lot of his songs are about celebrating his home (Somalia) and trying to show a different side to it, to counter-balance the media image (pirates! warlords! Black Hawk Down!)
In 2009, he released his second album, the critically hailed Troubadour which featured Wavin' Flag. The artist is optimistic that music does have the power to reach people and creative positive change in the world.
"I think there's a difference between media coverage of an incident and a song. I think a song does something a little more lasting, I hope. I hope we register into people's feelings," K'NAAN said. "Since Haiti is going to be struggling for a long time now to fix this thing, I think we need a song that stays with people a little bit more than the newspapers are willing to commit to the subject." (Vancouver Sun)
Thursday, March 11, 2010
eyelid failure (falling asleep)
Dr Katz is the cartoon of a therapist living with his grown son who doesn't work. When he's at the office, his patients are just a variety of stand-up comics doing their shticks. I think I find stand-up even funnier when it's illustrated.
Anyway, the conversations between the father and son are so funny, really well written. And Dr Katz reminds me of my dad. So does the Steve Martin character in Parenthood.
I would explain, but I'm falling asleep at the computer because I worked at 6 AM today... I've had 2 hours of sleep... I can barely maintain cohererererence.
My compy -- back and better than before!
Fernando asked him to put in a new keyboard, because my fingernails had worn out certain letters. And the light's been fixed.
I think the guy cleaned my screen. It looks so nice. And I think he fixed the latch that keeps the lid closed--I had taken to putting a big, cute hair elastic around it. But now it seems to just latch shut again.
loo loo loo break from work
I'm working from home today... currently mired in a little project which seems never ending. I keep finding more details I can add.
I really should finish soon cause tomorrow I have to work at 6 AM. But I'm nooot sleeeeepy yet.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Scenes from a marriage
Monday, March 8, 2010
computer is pooped
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Julie the prat
Now the question remains whether I'll still read the book by Julie Powell, about cooking Julia Child's recipes for a year.
Ah well. Off to work on my own book. I have lots of good new ideas because of watching and reading Wodehouse all week.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Jeeves and the Spot of Art
[Corky reveals the painting.]
C - How does it strike you?
B - [After a stunned pause, with horrified look on face.] Yes well, of course I only saw the kid for a moment.
C - I've painted the soul of the subject Bertie! It's a talent we artists have.
B - Surely a child of that age wouldn't have had the time to get a soul like that, would he Jeeves?
J - I should think it most unlikely, sir.
ahhh!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Story of Me: In headcolds
Ohhh. I gots nooo energies. Actually that's not true. I have enough energy to sit up, which is more than I would have with a flu or gastro. But the energy to take a much needed shower? Ohhhhhh. I wonder if I can wear my PJs to work tonight. I don't even have sloughy jogging pants to wear, cause I'm not a sloughy joggings pants girl (can never find any long enough for my legs.)
I kept waking up last night, and I only got a 7 hour sleep. Lately when I hit the pillow, no matter how tired I am, I think about work. I need to get out of this phase! Last night I finally sat up in bed and worked on my story plotting, which finally quieted my brain down.
Maybe I should attempt a nap, but I'm afraid it will take me too long to fall asleep and next thing I know I'll have to get up for work. Mehhhhhhh.
When I was in school I used to get 2-3 head colds per winter. And still went to school and work most days, cause I had to. I'm not so tough anymore. I've turned into a big softy.
watching Flight of the Conchords
They're turning kids into slaves just to make cheaper sneakers.
But what's the real cost?
'Cause the sneakers don't seem that much cheaper.
Why are we still paying so much for sneakers
When you got them made by little slave kids
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Bertie Wooster covers
Monday, March 1, 2010
Zadie Smith & Wodehouse
ON BEAUTY by ZADIE SMITH
After much interruption--finished the book. Some of the reviews on the book strike me as weird, though. I wouldn't describe this as "A rollicking satire. Fun, chummy and big-hearted." The word "funny" is used a lot. I agree it was good satire, but I wasn't, you know, laughing.
Overall I really liked it. I cared about the characters from the first pages, and that's what engaged me and made it page-turning. I thought the overarching story of the marriage relationship clichéd, but Smith wraps the whole thing up so well that it at least makes sense to the plot.
The most interesting thing, from a writing perspective, was that she was dealing with a variety of accents--Haitian, Trinnie, Jamaican etc.; Nigerian and I think another African country; Bostonian; English; educated; "street" and such. Most of the time I thought she did it really well--my only test being "when I try to hear this in a British/Nigerian/Trinidad accent, is it easy to do?" 90% of the time it was.
THIS IS THE PART WHERE I START BLATHERING TO MYSELF
Except, oddly, when the one "of the streets" type young Black guy was talking, and the character who's middle class but likes to talk like he's from the nabe. They both sounded like London Black kids to me. ...Now mind you... I'm comparing Young Black American Guys From TV vs Young Black British Guys From TV. Which shows how much I know. I couldn't help it, I kept hearing an East London accent like this. But I probably just don't know what a Roxbury accent sounds like (sounds like?).
Anyway, it was very helpful to read in this way (merci MyAmericanFriend.) Smith does the same thing I did in my last book--you write non-phonetically but with the right accent in your head, and then you occasionally pop in what the phonics of the sentence would look like.
There's just one odd exception. She has this one deep-southern character (I forget from which state) and half of his words are written phonetically. I have no idea why him, and not anyone else. Every single time he says "powerpoint" Smith writes it as pah-point. Or "ah" instead of "I."
The other reason to read her was to see how she handled having many characters, which she did very well, but I don't think I learned anything new. Basically you introduce people slowly, but thoroughly. And if you have as many characters as Jilly Cooper or Charles Dickens, you throw your audience a bone and give them a Cast of Characters list. :-)
WODEHOUSE & WOT NEXT?
And so. Now to decide whether to read her other well-known book, or switch rails entirely. Meanwhile I'm still re-reading The Inimitable Jeeves, which is absolutely wonderful. It's been long enough since I read the Jeeves books that I'm really enjoying it, and rewatching the series too. Ahhhh. Wodehouse. Writing that soothes the Mabel Soul. (There's actually one Wooster reference in On Beauty. Zadie Smith is English.)
All the best Jeeves & Wooster videos are embedding-disabled!
* The famous giving of prizes by a drunk Finknottle.
* A little summary of the Jeeves & Wooster series... for Mlle Peej... the only other woman I know who has a crush on Bertie Wooster.
* And my favourite music TV theme song of allll time: The Jeeves & Wooster opening.